Lately i've been really realizing how much of a loner I am. Well..i guess i've always been that way, but lately its been sticking out to me a lot more. I've always been extremely independent. Not in a .."i'm going to take a trip around the world by myself."..independent, but .."i'm not going to let you in to see the frail and vulnerable me."independent. I've never been the type of person to just bare it all. Tell people my deepest secrets and concerns. Usually when people get too close I turn into a recluse. Its like my mind screams "RUN FOR THE HILLS, YOUR GUARD IS GOING DOWN!". So I run.. But recently I've really seen how in doing that I'm hurting not only myself, but i'm running away from others who could use my encouragement and listening ear.
It's so funny, today (sunday 9th) Chad and I decided to go to church. (side note i havent been to church in a good 3 years or so) And the sermon was on NEEDING EACH OTHER. I literally was laughing to myself how God works things out. I heard exactly what i needed to hear during my struggle. God tells us countless times in the Bible how much we need each other in this life. God created the body of Christ so we wouldn't have to walk alone. READ 1 Cor. 12, 15-20.." Just as a body, though one, has many parts, but all its many parts form one body, ....But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as He wanted them to be. If they were all one part , where would the body be?" God has made each one of us unique. We each have something to offer that someone else does not. We all work together like a body does!
We also need encouragement from others. “Therefore encourage one another and build up one another, just as you also are doing” (1 Thessalonians 5:11). BOY DO I REALIZE THIS NOW. Life sucks. It really does. Life is never an easy ride. There are tons of pot holes, small & large hills and bad weather to get in the way. We cannot pretend that life is all gummy bears and sunshine. Being able to talk and listen to each other is the best medicine. Each of us has had trials we have gotten through, and we can offer each other words of advice and encouragement to uplift one another. We were never ment to walk this road alone. I now realize that I need others to help carry my burdens. God is good all the time, He is continually showing me how small and helpless I am, and thats a good thing! Its tiring to hold everything inside and on your shoulders. This song by Rebecca St. James is one of my favorites. It has really been opening my eyes and heart to let others in.
I see the pain behind your smile
Please don't hold it all inside
Together we can run
To the finish line
And when you are tired
I'll carry you
I can't walk this road without you
You cannot go it alone
We were never meant to make it on our own
And when the load becomes to heavy
And your feet too tired too walk
I will carry you and we'll be carried on
You cannot go it alone
We were never meant to make it on our own
And when the load becomes to heavy
And your feet too tired too walk
I will carry you and we'll be carried on
Share your burden now
I will listen
And when I'm weak
Will you hold me to the truth
That we can go on, for we are carried
Three strands of chord
Cannot be easily torn...
I will listen
And when I'm weak
Will you hold me to the truth
That we can go on, for we are carried
Three strands of chord
Cannot be easily torn...
I can't walk this road without you
You cannot go it alone
We were never meant to make it on our own
When the load becomes to heavy
And your feet too tired too walk
I will carry you and we'll be carried on
You cannot go it alone
We were never meant to make it on our own
When the load becomes to heavy
And your feet too tired too walk
I will carry you and we'll be carried on
don't you love when God speaks to you like that?!? that's how this past Sunday was for me, too :)
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